"Kill The Black One First"

A memoir of hope and justice

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"Kill The Black One First"

By: Michael Fuller Consultancy Ltd

Narrated by: Michael Fuller Consultancy Ltd

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This audiobook was previously published under the title "A Search For Belonging"

'Absorbing... revealing and affecting. There are pleasures here, and lessons to be learnt, whatever colour you are' - The Sunday Times

'Michael Fuller is an extraordinary man with a remarkable and interesting story' - Helen Mirren

A story about race, identity, belonging and displacement, "Kill the Black One First" is the memoir from Michael Fuller - Britain's first ever black Chief Constable, whose childhood in care and career in policing is not only a stark representation of race relations in the UK, but also a unique morality tale of how humanity deals with life's unfairness.

Hoping to tackle injustice and create change from within, Michael joined the police force. There, he experienced racism and inequality, from colleagues shouting racist insults, to the Brixton Riots where 'Kill the black one first!' was yelled from the crowds. Determined, despite everything, not to turn and walk away, he rose through the ranks and made his way to the very top.

"Kill the Black One First" is an unflinching account of a life in policing during a tumultuous period, and how one man set out, against the odds, to try and belong.

Includes an exclusive interview with the author.

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This provocatively titled memoir is one of a kind and offers up a perspective that is currently lacking in the discourse surrounding race in Britain. ((Derek Owusu, author of SAFE))

This is the story of a diligent, bright and sensitive individual who cares passionately about justice [but] at the heart of Fuller's journey is a quest to belong... His journey is utterly inspiring and it powerfully illuminates the dynamics of racial conflict in England over the past fifty years from someone who was in a very unique position. ((Eric Karl Anderson, Lonesome Reader))

Absorbing... revealing and affecting. There are pleasures here, and lessons to be learnt, whatever colour you are.

Michael Fuller is an extraordinary man with a remarkable and interesting story. ((Helen Mirren))

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This is also a great story of an individual punching above their weight and overcoming the low expectations stuck on to them.

if the book wasn't so interesting and well read and only inspired others to aim high, persist and fight against the odds, it would still be very valuable