• Teaching is Learning is Teaching
    Jun 9 2026
    • Teacher, learner, there is no difference, for if you teach about learning, you are parroting dead ideas from the past that may never have happened in reality. If you are only a learner, then you are robbing the process of metabolising what is coming to you so that it can come back in new forms that create even more understanding for the supposed other?
    • So teach in order to learn, share with you now and be open to what comes back. Share with you now and pay attention to what you are saying and how you are putting together the information in order to communicate it clearly, because if you do, you will learn. You will learn greatly, as a matter of fact, if you are a teacher in this way. You will learn more than you ever would have been able to learn if you had just considered yourself a learner only.
    • So learn in order to teach, because if you are learning with no intention to share, you have a distinct ability to put bits of information or stories in compartments that only solidify prior judgments and ideas that you have, thus missing the whole point of what has been brought to you.
    • So when you teach, know that you are receiving as much as you're giving and changing as fast as you are bettering, and that the other's growth is your growth, literally. They are giving you a great gift by being open to learn, but the gift is not theirs. The gift is yours.
    • And when you learn, you are also giving the same gift to another, but as you metabolize the information and process it, it can become alive.


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  • Can't be polished if you resist the rubs. ACIM - Song of Prayer
    Jun 9 2026
    Text Analysis - Forgiveness and Illusions: Jevon Perra and Soo Kim review a section of "The Song of Prayer," focusing on the nature of forgiveness and how it relates to illusions. They discuss the text's assertion that one should not dictate the form forgiveness takes, noting that the form of illusions does not actually matter, although they acknowledge that humans often struggle because they are attached to specific outcomes and the forms their lives take.Spiritual Pursuits and Morality: Jevon Perra contrasts their previous religious experiences, which were based on moral codes and the avoidance of punishment, with their current understanding. They define the new perspective as a shift away from "deserving" punishment toward pursuing contentment, noting that if current methods for finding happiness are not working, they can be abandoned.Suffering and Attachment: Jevon Perra notes that suffering often stems from an attachment to specific forms, whether the suffering arises from desiring things one does not have or fearing the loss of things one currently possesses. They conclude that being committed to the "form" of life leads to a cycle of suffering, regardless of whether the person has the desired outcome or not.Navigating Projection and Judgments: Soo Kim shares an experience from a medical office where a classmate expressed a desire to live in isolation to avoid people and specific regional groups. Soo Kim reflects on how they previously would have tried to "fix" or lecture the classmate about projections, but instead, they were able to observe the classmate's perspective as a puzzle, choosing to release the need to change the other person.Life Challenges as Polishing: Jevon Perra references the Sufi poet Rumi, discussing how life challenges act as a "rub" that polishes the individual, removing rough spots. They note that resistance to these difficulties—such as complaining about family members or people in conversations—is a failure to embrace the process of personal development.Acceptance of Family and Friends: The participants discuss the difficulty of interacting with family or friends who hold different beliefs or act in ways they perceive as "wrong". Jevon Perra suggests that rather than trying to change these individuals or fix their problems, one can choose to simply be present with them and let go of the need for the other person to be different.Identity, Image, and Projection: Jevon Perra identifies a personal tendency to worry about how they appear to others, which they define as an ego-driven desire for status or respect. They observe that viewing others as "buffoons" or embarrassing is a projection of their own concern about their own image, which causes them significant discomfort.The Trap of Saving Others: Soo Kim and Jevon Perra discuss the "savior" complex, where they feel the need to fix or save others. Jevon Perra acknowledges that for years they were caught in the mind, believing they were freeing others while actually attempting to validate their own righteousness and prove they were worthy of love.Defining Forgiveness as a Function: Continuing their reading, the participants identify that their only true function is to forgive. They discuss how they frequently confuse this function with other actions, such as trying to save, fix, or overpower others, which are all methods of maintaining separation and control.Personality Dynamics and Conflict: Jevon Perra discusses Enneagram type 8 behaviors, noting that these individuals may use their power and anger to "defend the defenseless" or suppress others they view as weak. They observe that this often manifests as a constant need to fight and poke at others to test their worthiness to be heard.Scarcity and the Illusion of Time: The participants analyze how business environments, specifically sales, are structured around self-imposed scarcity. Soo Kim mentions a previous discussion regarding time as an illusion and observes that while their classmate used this concept to dismiss professional concerns, they recognize that time—along with other limits—is essential to the current existence and the "game" of the personality.Energy and the Personality: Jevon Perra suggests that individuals spend an immense amount of energy maintaining the "personality," which they describe as a tiny peephole through which the larger self views reality. They note that this intense focus intentionally blinds people to the broader "happening" of life, as if they are orchestrating a complex, precise operation through a narrow aperture.Somatic Experiences and Sound Bath: Soo Kim recounts a recent experience playing a new gong, describing how they were able to enter a state where time seemed to disappear. They note that after this intense meditative state, they felt disconnected from social norms and had difficulty engaging in typical linear conversations.Flow States and Social Engagement: Jevon Perra compares spiritual "out of body" flow states to stage...
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  • Be The Watcher
    May 20 2026

    go here for the youtube video to see images in this explainer.

    https://youtu.be/oQqfsvwwt6E?si=4SzX44Ud9fnlxqTl

    this is how to arrive at contentment. it's more simple than you think. it's closer than you can imagine.

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  • Why Your Plans Never Work
    May 20 2026
    Why Your Plans Never Work. This is AI generated podcast from my notes below. pretty fancy! Experiential constancy. What if the baseline of your experience of life is already set? There is an experience that we have that stays relatively constant because the stimulus required to get there changes as you evolve. If you're unaware, you can go through a lot of bad stuff and you have a particular experience: relatively happy, relatively sad, relatively angry, and so on. As you evolve, you notice more of the junk in life and correct many mistakes. In doing so, you become more sensitive to your stimulus around you. Even though you're cleaning up your world, so to speak, you retain the same experience and equilibrium, a pre-set equilibrium that stays the same as you do the work to change your surroundings. So changing your surroundings won't make you happy, because the more you change it, the more sensitive you get. The smaller amount of what you do not want gives you a bigger reaction because you are more sensitive and in tune, and it keeps you in the same baseline experience. So instead of trying to change the world and change yourself, work on just being happy, exactly as you are. Work on being peaceful, exactly as everything is. Be content right now. There's nothing else to do. You can try to make a difference so you can be content another time. Wherever you go, there you are. It won't work. All you have is now. Might as well do it now. Might as well be content now. What if life did not get better than it is right now, ever? What if this is it? Would you find contentment now? If None of those pursuits matter or can end state can be changed by changing the external stimulus, then contentment now is the Highest goal and the highest state. As an example, let's say you live a selfish life and you have some sort of epiphany that your selfish desires won't make you happy, and so you switch it up and decide that loving service delivers contentment and it is a much better life. You decide, however, now that you are concerned for others and you desire service for others instead of taking for others for your selfish gain. You start to become aware of everyone else's needs and the suffering outside of yourself.This new awareness creates a new level of suffering because you've actually cared for these people that are suffering. It can't change. We realized you can't change other people's experiences, even if you give them what they say they want. It's a bit of a trap, thinking that satiating your desire will create less desire. You realize that feeding desire when it wants it only creates more desire. This is true if your desire is for selfish gain or if your desire is to serve someone else's desires. It becomes clear that to be content, you must free yourself from desire in general. How do you do that? By accepting that all of life, as it is and as it's coming to you, is perfect and that you want nothing else. You want only what you have. You want only who you are. You want only what others have and are.Only wanting what is, as it is now, is only possible if you can see past the small character that so many of us think we are: our small ego, this tiny, constrained bit of awareness that is within a tiny mind. That's called a personality that we optimistically is inside a body. If we think we are that and we think others are that, we will never be free from desire. The reason for this is that the whole Ego's Mantra is: "Seek but do not find." It wants you to keep searching because it has to create separation boundaries between them and us, boundaries between me and God, boundaries between what I have and what I want. There have to be boundaries, or else the made-up separations would start to fall apart. Once that starts falling apart, the made-up separation of a separate special self would also eventually fall apart. Even though we suffer because of it, we cherish our separate special self because we think it's us. To lose it would be like dying, like annihilation, and even though we suffer, we think it's better to suffer than to be annihilated.So how do I get out? The only way is to increase my awareness. I have to expand my view past the blinders that I put up to keep me within a tiny separate personality in a tiny brain, all supposedly in a tiny body. When I expand my vision, I realize that I can look upon this tiny personality and tiny body in order to be able to observe something from the outside. It presupposes that there's something outside to be able to do the observing. I would not be able to watch myself do painful things unless there was something outside that self that is doing the watching. This watcher is a bigger part of myself. What is it? Is it consciousness? Is it my soul? Are they ethereal or astral bodies? I'm not sure what it is, but I know it's bigger than this little personality. I know it's a bit comforting because the personality seems to be set at a certain level of happiness, but that ...
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  • Weaponize Being Good
    May 19 2026

    Weaponize Being Good

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  • Earth is a Gym, not a Spa
    May 16 2026

    These documents summarize a series of spiritual teachings and professional marketing plans focused on self-realization and personal growth. The core philosophy emphasizes raising one’s internal frequency through techniques like forgiveness, gratitude, and viewing all life experiences as divine lessons. The notes integrate concepts from various teachers to encourage a shift from ego-based suffering to a state of contentment and non-attachment. Alongside these metaphysical insights, the text outlines detailed business strategies for launching a spiritual novel and podcast. These tasks include pitching to influencers, managing digital marketing platforms, and seeking literary agents or film producers. Ultimately, the collection serves as both a philosophical guide for achieving enlightenment and a professional roadmap for sharing those ideas with a wider audience.

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  • Seeing Life Like A Dog - Best Friends Only - ACIM
    May 11 2026

    Song of Prayer - chapt 2 part two, Forgiveness to Destroy.

    The Nature of Forgiveness to Destroy: Soo Kim read a passage describing "Forgiveness to Destroy" as having many forms, serving as a weapon of the world of form, with the goal of separating and making unequal what God created as equal. This form of forgiveness can appear as a better person condescending to a baser one with an attitude of gracious lordliness, which is far from love. Jevon Perra summarized this as the ego seeing difference, while the Holy Spirit sees sameness, where one person recognizes another's "badness" but lets it slide from a perceived superior position.

    Connection to Religious Practices: The discussion connected the concept of "Forgiveness to Destroy" to the practice of confession in Catholicism, which Jevon Perra suggested can be engaged on a high level by realizing the ego's actions are not one's own. Jevon Perra noted that the challenge is when individuals associate themselves with their negative actions, implying "I did the bad thing so I am bad". Soo Kim agreed with Jevon Perra's point that one can recognize the practice as part of a game, regardless of what others may be implying.

    Generalizing Judgments and Seeking Sameness: Jevon Perra shared how past negative experiences led them to generalize hurt over groups like "church people" or "Catholics," and confirmed that holding an idea that anything outside of them is bad creates separation and suffering. The core assignment is sincerely finding the things that are the same between them and the "offender".

    Individual vs. Institutional Blame: Soo Kim noted their tendency to focus on the institution or "the whole day" rather than the individual when assigning blame. Jevon Perra agreed that there is ultimately no "they" or institution that can hurt someone unless a person representing that institution does or says something, and the work must focus on recognizing sameness in the person.

    Innocence and Human Dynamic: Jevon Perra used the example of their dog, Kobe, who sees only best friends and brings out the best in others, illustrating how the Holy Spirit only sees itself. They suggested preparing for the human dynamic by recognizing one’s own suffering and ways of dealing with the ego, which often leads to enrolling in organizations that make others bad so one can be in the "good" one. Jevon Perra concluded that judging is like the natural "fruit" of people, and everyone is making up their reality.

    Grace and Forgiving the Offender: Jevon Perra asserted that people growing painful judgments are "stuck" unless they receive "grace from God" or the Holy Spirit helps them. They suggested having grace because the offender is "just a judgment growing thing" and is doing the same thing as the observer, allowing them to see the innocence of the true self.

    Worship Music and Recontextualization: Jevon Perra noted that seeing others as innocent makes experiences like going to mass or listening to worship music less painful than before. They can now recontextualize worship as a positive reaching out to adore the creator, without associating it with the belief in something outside of themself that needs to save them.

    Internal Conflict Over Principle: Soo Kim expressed difficulty in feeling what they want to do because they are used to thinking in terms of principles, such as honoring their mother and father by attending mass, which conflicts with their principle of standing for truth. Jevon Perra clarified that one can still adhere to broader principles, like choosing sameness over difference.

    Protecting Beliefs and Suffering: Soo Kim described feeling the need to put on a "protective layer" in church to avoid being infected by the "poppycck" and reinforced the belief that the church enforces separation. Jevon Perra challenged this by asking who is making them suffer when they protect their separate identity and right idea of God.

    The Illusion of Institutions: Jevon Perra and Soo Kim discussed the difficulty of not generalizing the church as "them" when the message is scripted and enforced, but Jevon Perra maintained that there is no "they" or system, only the self. Jevon Perra argued that suffering from external ideas, like people dying in Somalia, is one's own internal suffering from the idea, and feeling bad does not help.

    Forgiveness as Seeing Innocence: Jevon Perra concluded that forgiveness is not about saying "I forgive you, you're still a piece of s\*\\*\*, but I'm gonna let it slide," but rather forgiving someone because they are innocent. The feeling of offense relies on the context being true—that the other person is an outsider doing irreparable bad—which leads to suffering, and "Forgiveness to Destroy" gives an excuse to destroy instead of love.

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  • Why your life is just Fantasia. See through the mist. - ACIM Song of Prayer
    May 9 2026
    • finished verse seven in the "forgiveness of yourself" chapter, "Song of Psalms". start reading verse eight next
    • Interpretation of Forgiveness and Society: Soo Kim shared that the concept of forgiveness was starting to "click" for them, noting that it felt like an "upside down world" compared to what they are taught by society. Jevon Perra agreed that the teaching is counterintuitive because society promotes the idea of a "special separate thing" that will find happiness in its separateness, which they identified as the source of suffering.
    • The Nature of Personal Accomplishment: Jevon Perra discussed how personal accomplishment will not lead to ultimate happiness, citing this as a sad epiphany. They explained that the fun part is starting a new venture and the complete fantasy of success, as well as the ability to "completely lose myself" and forget their separate self in the activity.
    • Separation and the Illusion of Self: Jevon Perra likened the effort to maintain separateness—which is the darkness, guilt, and separation—to running a "fog machine" that prevents them from seeing the truth. They referenced a show at Disneyland that projects an image onto a wall of mist, stating that the mist is essential to get lost and deceived in the image.
    • Reading and Interpretation of Verse Nine and Ten: Soo Kim read verses nine and ten, which discuss that forgiveness is the key, but one must first find the door for which the key was made. The text states that the concept of "forgiveness to destroy" must be cleansed of its hateful goals and unveiled in its treachery before it can be let go, allowing learning to be complete.
    • Defining "Forgiveness to Destroy": Jevon Perra defined "forgiveness to destroy" as forgiving someone while still viewing them as an offender or enemy. This practice keeps the separation alive, reinforcing the idea of a special, separate self with separate desires, leading to a zero-sum game where suffering persists.
    • Achieving Acceptance and Moving Past Separation: Soo Kim suggested that acceptance, or "radical acceptance," is necessary to move past separateness, which involves recognizing that others are acting from a place of innocence. Jevon Perra questioned what "innocent" means in the context of bad behavior, and Soo Kim clarified that innocence refers to their essence, or the place where people are the same.
    • Morality and the Lack of Inherent Meaning in Actions: Jevon Perra argued that morality sets up a world of polarity, where good and bad actions are defined by cultural context, suggesting that no action has inherent meaning. They asserted that morality is not an ultimate way to achieve happiness, though it can serve as a "good architecture" to build from and later be torn down, similar to developing the ego before one can overcome it.
    • The Practice of Saying "I Am God": Jevon Perra mentioned using the mantra "I am God," noting that to speak this truth, one must be in the correct state, not operating from a separate, egoic perspective. They explained that this requires shifting from "spotlight vision"—which focuses on details and success/failure—to "flood light vision," which is peripheral and expanded.
    • Personality and the Experience of Suffering: Jevon Perra described the personality as a program of reoccurring thoughts and beliefs that can be recoded, but which remains separate. They observed that when operating in the "spotlight" or laser version of awareness, they suffer, and freedom is instantly felt when they expand to the wide "flood light" perspective.

    Discussion of Martial Arts Practice: Soo Kim inquired about Jevon Perra's martial arts practice, and Jevon Perra clarified that they used to practice Jiu-Jitsu but now practice a Tai Chi-type martial arts style, possibly combined with Aikido, called "push hands". Jevon Perra extended an invitation to Soo Kim to join their Sunday practice at Edison Park in Huntington at 8:00 a.m.

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