Episodes

  • Sleeper Agents: Epistemologies of Survival

    Sleeper Agents: Epistemologies of Survival
    May 25 2026

    Episode Description:

    This week we’re talking about language as armor, language as weapon, and language as time travel.

    Jane Goodall spent 60 years figuring out what makes humans different from chimpanzees. Her answer: we can speak of things that are absent — the past, the future, ideas that don't exist in any room we're standing in. I explore how whoever gives you the words gets to give you the time.

    This episode traces what happens when someone uses that power against you — and what it takes to get your timeline back.

    On the astrology side: a Sagittarius Full Moon asking where your hard-won knowledge actually belongs, Athena as feminist sleeper agent, Vesta making way for ecstatic chaos, and the Arachne story as a case study in truth-telling strategy. Plus Mars square Pluto, Ceres entering Gemini, and a week that wants you to get strategic about how you apply what you know.

    Content warning: sexual trauma.

    References:

    • Jane Goodall, "What Separates Us from Chimpanzees?" TED 2003
    • Michelle Alexander, The New Jim Crow (2010)
    • Audre Lorde, "The Master's Tools Will Never Dismantle the Master's House," Sister Outsider (1984)\

    Music by Charmie Chandler Group space, 2nd and 4th Mondays 5:30pm CT: sign up here Book sessions: calendly.com/amaliathecoach

    Keywords: astrology podcast, Sagittarius full moon May 2026, epistemology and trauma, language and power, Jane Goodall human language time travel, Athena Arachne myth, Vesta asteroid astrology, sleeper agents mythology, knowledge production, sexual trauma healing, somatic healing, Michelle Alexander injustice system, IFS astrology, Mars Pluto square May 2026, Ceres Gemini 2026, this erotic timeline

    TIMESTAMPS

    00:00 — Cold open: how do you know what you know?

    00:54 — Welcome + grounding ritual

    01:48 — Astrology of the week

    02:33 — Monday May 25: Squaring up with the dark

    04:46 — Tuesday May 26: Athena — feminist sleeper agent

    09:02 — Vesta — the invisible hearth keeper who made way for ecstatic chaos

    11:18 — Thursday May 28: Ceres enters Gemini — talk about the grief

    13:04 — Sunday May 31: Sagittarius Full Moon — how do you apply your hard-won knowledge?

    15:16 — Athena and Arachne: a case study in truth-telling

    21:03 — Midway: Jane Goodall, language, and time travel

    23:27 — Descent: the word epistemology and what it cost me

    31:00 — Leaving academia, learning to walk on the ground

    38:06 — Survivors of sexual abuse and the power institutions don't want us to have

    41:17 — Holy shit! your body has been time traveling all this time

    45:50 — What this podcast is actually for

    49:01 — Weekly recap + closing questions
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    52 mins
  • 13 Joints, 20 Digits, 260 Days: Mayan Timekeeping, Ecological Collapse, and Changing Your Mind

    13 Joints, 20 Digits, 260 Days: Mayan Timekeeping, Ecological Collapse, and Changing Your Mind
    May 18 2026
    Your body is not a vehicle. It's a timekeeping system. This week, the sky is moving slow enough for you to hear it. Episode 5 moves from a beautiful week of astrology —Mars into Taurus, Venus into Cancer, and a Uranus cazimi asking which kind of revolution we're committed to— into a descent on the Mayan timekeeping practices that have been changing how I understand what time is, where it lives, and why the body might be the best calendar any of us has ever had. The descent takes us into the Cholq'ij (K’iche' Maya) or Tzolk'in (Yucatec Maya) —the human-level calendar— and the sacred math behind it: 13 major joints in the human body, 20 digits, and a 260-day cycle that corresponds to human gestation, the growth cycle of corn, and beyond. We also go into the Mayan concept of najt, a single word for space and time together, because in this system, they cannot be separated; and we discuss the 2012 myth and what actually happened. Also discussed: how in the Mayan creation story, humans were made to be timekeepers, and what it might mean that our experience of time is generated from inside the space of our own body. I share what I learned from Solveig Barrios of the Mayan Wisdom Project, founded with her late father, the renowned Mayan elder Carlos Barrios. From Celene, my guide at the Museo Regional de la Costa Oriental in Tulum. From Javi, my guide with the Sian Ka'an Community Tours. And from the Popol Vuh, which tells us that humans were created for a specific purpose: to keep the days. I also talk about why the Maya never "mysteriously disappeared" — and what their era of ecological collapse and eventual mindset renovation has to say to us in this particular moment in history. Sources and links: The Mayan Wisdom Project: https://www.themayanwisdomproject.com/Museo Regional de la Costa Oriental, Tulum (INAH): https://inah.gob.mx/museos/museo-regional-de-la-costa-orientalSian Ka'an Community Tours: https://siankaantours.com.mx/Creation Story of the Maya / Living Maya Time (Smithsonian NMAI): https://maya.nmai.si.edu/the-maya/creation-story-mayaLiving Maya Time — The Calendar System (Smithsonian NMAI): https://maya.nmai.si.edu/mayaThe rattlesnake, the Pleiades, and tzab / Susan Milbrath research via Mexicolore: https://www.mexicolore.co.uk/aztecs/flora-and-fauna/rattlesnakeVenus synodic period and Mayan calendars: https://journalofmathematicsandculture.wordpress.com/wp-content/uploads/2016/07/venus-synodic-period-jmc-final-10-1.pdfChichen Itza and the Venus cycle (National Geographic): https://www.nationalgeographic.com/travel/article/chichen-itza-venus-cycleA New View on Maya Astronomy (Maya Exploration Center): https://www.mayaexploration.org/pdf/A%20New%20View%20on%20Maya%20Astronomy.pdfMaya Decipherment (epigraphy and scholarship): https://mayadecipherment.com/Ajchich1 (Mayan calendar daykeeping blog): https://ajchich1.blogspot.com/Breaking the Maya Code (documentary): https://vimeo.com/ondemand/115559Delulu is the Solulu: https://www.tiktok.com/@resego_mojela/video/7269354134472576261 https://knowyourmeme.com/memes/delulu/photosMusic by Charmie Chandler: https://www.instagram.com/charmie_chandler/ CHAPTERS 00:00 — Opening: your body is not a vehicle, it's a timekeeping system 00:47 — Grounding ritual 02:30 — Monday May 18: Mars into Taurus + Venus into Cancer. The exhale 05:47 — Interoception: your body reading its own signals and reporting back 07:49 — Tuesday May 19: Venus sextile Mars + Mercury square the nodes (your words are at a crossroads) 09:49 — "Truth that comes from inside the body is like fucking fertilizer for the space around it" 11:04 — Friday May 22: Uranus cazimi — the biggest day of the week 12:05 — The mythology: Ouranos, Cronus, Zeus — power transferred, not transformed 13:47 — Prometheus and the freak frequency: handing power down instead of hoarding it up 17:44 — Transition: the imagination as departure lounge, and why the body has to be the anchor 18:50 — "The body isn't just a vehicle. The body is the matrix." 21:45 — Descent begins: Mayan timekeeping, and complex feelings about sharing 29:01 — The Cholq'ij / Tzolk'in: 13 joints, 20 digits, 260 days — the human-level calendar 36:07 — The Popol Vuh: humans were created to "keep the days" 43:32 — "They never disappeared. They just changed their mindset." TAGS mayan timekeeping, tzolkin calendar, cholq'ij, mayan wisdom project, najt space time, 260 day calendar, human body calendar, interoception, uranus cazimi, prometheus astrology, freak frequency, astrology may 2026, mars taurus, venus cancer, gemini season, popol vuh, keep the days, mayan geocosmovision, sian kaan, tulum mayan ruins, ecological collapse mindset, IFS internal family systems, embodied time, erotic timeline podcast
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    50 mins
  • From Oil to The Pomegranate Economy: On Shadow Hunger, Grief, and Cutting New Deals

    From Oil to The Pomegranate Economy: On Shadow Hunger, Grief, and Cutting New Deals
    May 11 2026

    Saturday's Taurus New Moon arrives conjunct Mercury, the asteroid Ceres, and the fixed star Algol (the Demon's Head) at the exact moment the International Energy Agency is calling the current oil disruption the greatest energy security crisis in recorded history. Their recommendation: work from home. Slow down. Minimize travel.

    Sound familiar?

    This episode covers the full Ceres and Persephone myth as a map for collective grief, why Thursday's Mercury and Ceres cazimis are an invitation to cut new deals with your own shadow, what Algol and the Morningstar have to do with disrupting hierarchies right now, and why Persephone eating the pomegranate seeds was not a mistake. Plus: the grief curriculum we've been inside since 2020, what oil has to do with ancestral time, and a brief loving return to Blursday, March the fortyteenth of Maprilay.

    Keywords: Taurus New Moon 2026, Mercury cazimi May 2026, Ceres astrology, Persephone myth, shadow hunger, pomegranate economy, Algol fixed star, grief and astrology, oil crisis 2026, Strait of Hormuz, IFS and astrology, Eleusinian Mysteries, Mars Chiron Aries, collective grief, energy crisis spiritual meaning

    Chapters

    00:00 — Opening: the extraction economy and your body 01:12 — Welcome & grounding 02:41 — Astrology of the week ahead 04:01 — What is a cazimi? Burning down to the bone 05:42 — The story of Ceres: innocence, obsession, and the narcissus flower 07:26 — The hole opens: Persephone's descent 15:12 — Mercury arrives: the psychopomp at the wall 17:45 — The pomegranate seeds: she was so hungry 20:37 — What grief generates: agriculture, the Eleusinian Mysteries, the gifts of fallow seasons 23:53 — Why these cazimis, why now: the deals you've cut to live with your pain 26:05 — Algol, Lucifer, and the Morningstar: big disruptions of power 31:50 — Stop being precious 33:36 — Midway: the binding was also the becoming 35:37 — The Descent: Blursday, the IEA, and the grief curriculum since 2020 47:10 — Closing: questions to plant this New Moon

    References

    Jason Holley — astrologer and depth psychologist, source of the narcissus/narcissism interpretation: jasonholley.net

    International Energy Agency, Oil Market Report: iea.org

    IEA demand-reduction recommendations: iea.org

    Atlantic Council — Webster & I'Anson on oil rationing: atlanticcouncil.org

    World Bank Commodity Markets Outlook April 2026: worldbank.org

    Washington Post — "It's been six months. Our sense of time is still broken": washingtonpost.com

    Elisabeth Kübler-Ross & David Kessler — the five stages of grief: grief.com
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    50 mins
  • The Accidental Favor: Attention, Deep Time, and the Body's Long Memory

    The Accidental Favor: Attention, Deep Time, and the Body's Long Memory
    May 4 2026
    What if the corporations farming our attention accidentally gave us the most radical favor in the history of collective awakening? In this episode, I trace a 600-year arc, from Gutenberg's printing press to the iPhone, to ask what actually happened to human attention, and why so many of us are collapsing under the weight of our own feelings right now. The answers I explore involve deep time, the colonization of the body and imagination, the rise of authoritarian movements, the difference between wellness and manageability, and why somatic reckoning might be one of the most quietly revolutionary forces of our era. We move through the astrology of the week of May 4–10, 2025 — a week of intense squares giving way to gentle visionary flow — and I share a time-bending story about a typewriter, a Friday ritual, ancestral wisdom, and finding my way back to my body and a different scale of time. Topics include: the attention economy, the precuneus and what the scroll literally does to your sense of time, Gutenberg and the printing press, the worship of the written word as a pillar of white supremacy culture, academic institutional complicity in the Palestinian genocide, authoritarianism and the outsourcing of feeling, somatic therapy and decolonization, ancestral healing and listening darkly, and what it means to come home to the body's long memory. CHAPTER MARKERS 00:00 — The premise: your attention was never lost, just redirected 01:49 — Opening & grounding practice 03:19 — Astrology of the week: overview 03:31 — Monday May 4: Mars square Jupiter — care, desire, and the rigged game 08:03 — Tuesday May 5: Mercury square Pluto — owning your wants, colonial shadows 10:08 — Wednesday May 6: Pluto retrograde — presence over force 11:06 — Thursday–Saturday: the simmer 12:28 — Sunday May 10: Sun sextile Jupiter — visionary flow and identity work 14:00 — The Descent: what the scroll does to your brain and sense of time 17:01 — Deep time and the 600-year arc of human attention 18:15 — Gutenberg, the Bible, and the colonization of imagination 21:58 — The most accidental favor in collective history 23:09 — Authoritarianism, madness, and what gets called sane 25:46 — Somatics, decolonization, and the body's reckoning 30:56 — Personal story: my dad, a typewriter, and time travel with ancestors 37:46 — Summary, questions for the week & close CITATIONS & RESOURCES Primary Sources Alexis Pauline Gumbs — Dub: Finding Ceremony (2020) Alexis Pauline Gumbs + Barbara Holmes — On Listening Darkly (transcript) Alexis Pauline Gumbs — You Are Loved (podcast episode) Prentis Hemphill & The Embodiment Institute — embodimentinstitute.org Khara Scott-Bey, somatic therapist — kharascottbey.com White Supremacy Culture — whitesupremacyculture.info Aneeza Pervez — Witnessing Silence: The Palestinian Genocide, Institutional Complicity, and the Politics of Knowledge (2025) — Globalisation, Societies and Education On Attention, Social Media & the Brain Large meta-analysis links TikTok and Instagram Reels to poorer cognitive and mental health — PsyPost Study on social media and attentional capacity — PubMed Social media use and cognitive function — PMC Social media, not gaming, tied to rising attention problems in teens — The Conversation On Madness, Empire, and Social Control Mab Segrest — Administrations of Lunacy: Racism and the Haunting of American Psychiatry at the Milledgeville Asylum (2020) — on how the American asylum system was built to contain bodies that couldn't be made productive under capitalism and Jim Crow Frantz Fanon — The Wretched of the Earth (1961) — on colonialism, madness, and the psychopathology of the colonized Frantz Fanon — Black Skin, White Masks (1952) — on race, identity, and the psychological violence of colonialism On Print, Media & Cognitive Change Walter Ong — Orality and Literacy (1982) — on how writing restructures consciousness Neil Postman — Amusing Ourselves to Death (1985) — on media and public discourse Marshall McLuhan — The Gutenberg Galaxy (1962) — on print culture and cognitive change An old argument against writing — on Socrates and the critique of the written word
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    42 mins
  • Desire, Time, and The Good Trouble

    Desire, Time, and The Good Trouble
    Apr 27 2026

    What if desire isn't something you feel but something that happens to you? Something bigger than a preference, older than a craving, that doesn't ask permission before it starts rearranging your life?

    In Episode 2 of This Erotic Timeline, we move through the astrology of the week (April 27 to May 3, 2025) including a grand air trine that lets collective freedom actually be felt, a potent Scorpio Full Moon, and Mercury entering Taurus, wherein the universe asks you to channel the wisdom of your inner three-year-old.

    Then we descend into desire.

    We get into Lacan and Freud's theory of desire-as-lack and why it's basically the philosophical backbone of capitalist consumerism. We talk about the difference between preference and desire and why desire might be less about what you want and more about an ecological force calling you toward the good trouble. We explore how the colonial gender binary weaponized desire to make us legible and controllable. And we visit the 5th house, Audre Lorde, and Toni Cade Bambara to ask: what if following desire is actually your political responsibility?

    This is just the opening of a much longer conversation.

    0:00 — Opening: What If Desire Happens to You?

    1:10 — Welcome & Grounding

    2:45 — Astrology of the Week Ahead (April 27–May 3)

    3:10 — Monday April 27: Ritual vs. Routine & The Sun Trine South Node

    6:00 — Tuesday April 28: Grand Air Trine & Feeling Collective Freedom

    8:00 — Wednesday April 29: Venus Squares the Nodes — The Tension That Builds

    10:15 — Thursday & Friday: Scorpio Full Moon + Mercury Conjunct Chiron

    13:00 — Saturday & Sunday: Mercury Enters Taurus

    15:30 — The Descent Begins: What Did You Do With That Wanting?

    17:30 — Desire Misunderstood: Lacan, Freud & Capitalist Lack

    21:30 — Preference vs. Desire: The Ecological Force (ft. Deleuze & Guattari)

    25:00 — Desire & Identity: The Colonial Gender Binary

    29:30 — The 5th House, The Ego as a Little Boat & Ripping the Sweater Off

    33:30 — Values, Play & Your Questions for the Week

    Theme music by the brilliant Charmie Chandler https://www.instagram.com/charmie_chandler/

    Sweet Talkin' Guy (referenced in this episode): https://www.nowness.com/series/nowness-shorts/sweet-talkin-guy-miss-dylan-spencer-wardwell

    References & Citations:

    • Sobonfu Somé — The Spirit of Intimacy
    • Jacques Lacan — theory of desire as lack
    • Sigmund Freud — foundational psychoanalytic theory of desire
    • Gilles Deleuze & Félix Guattari — desire as ecological and productive force
    • Alok Vaid-Menon — Beyond the Gender Binary
    • Brooklyn Leo — The Colonial/Modern [Cis]Gender System and Trans World Traveling
    • Audre Lorde — Uses of the Erotic
    • Toni Cade Bambara — on culture workers and irresistible revolution

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    Join me for an intimate group space on the 2nd and 4th Mondays of every month: htthttps://www.amaliathecoach.com/groupwork
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    35 mins
  • A Beak of Water: Time Scarcity & Devotion in Urgent Times

    A Beak of Water: Time Scarcity & Devotion in Urgent Times
    Apr 20 2026

    Why does urgency make it so hard to actually move?

    In this episode of This Erotic Timeline, we explore time scarcity — that creeping, collective sense that time is running out — and what it does to our bodies, our relationships, and our ability to show up for what we actually care about.

    Through the lens of this week's astrology (Mars–Saturn in Aries, Mercury joining the stellium, Venus–Uranus shaking up desire, and Uranus entering Gemini for a new era), we track the astrological signatures driving this feeling of pressure, urgency, and transformation — and ask what it means to stay present inside all of it.

    We explore:

    • How constant exposure to crisis and the phone scroll erodes our felt sense of time and agency
    • Why urgency + fear disconnect us from presence — and from meaningful action
    • The nervous system impact of consuming distressing content without release (via Prentice Hemphill)
    • How time scarcity shows up in attachment patterns, love languages, and relational reactivity
    • A somatic approach to identifying what is actually yours to do in this moment

    From there, we move into a reframe through an Indigenous Latin American story of the hummingbird and the forest fire — an invitation to release the pressure of fixing everything and return to small, devoted, consistent action.

    If you've been feeling frozen, overwhelmed, or unsure what to do in a world that won't slow down — this episode offers a grounded, embodied way forward.

    Even now. Especially now. We are still co-creating time.

    References: Prentice Hemphill (Becoming the People); Mariame Kaba; Bayo Akomolafe

    0:00 Cold Open: Does Time Feel Like It's Running Out?

    1:10 Welcome & Grounding. Arrive in This Moment

    2:30 Astrology of the Week Ahead

    3:00 Sunday: Mars-Saturn Conjunction & Sun Enters Taurus

    7:30 Monday: Mercury in Aries. Devotional Focus

    10:00 Tue–Wed: Big Feelings (Moon in Cancer)

    10:50 Thursday: Venus-Uranus & Venus into Gemini

    14:00 Saturday: Sun Square Pluto & Uranus Enters Gemini

    17:15 Sunday Close: Hope as Revolutionary Discipline

    18:00 The Descent. Topic: Time Scarcity

    22:30 Scrolling, the News Cycle & the Nervous System

    24:30 Personal Time Scarcity & Relational Reactivity

    27:00 The Hummingbird & the Forest Fire: Finding Your Part

    30:30 Closing Reflections & Questions for the Week

    33:45 Outro
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    35 mins
  • Prelude: Entering the Erotic Timeline

    Prelude: Entering the Erotic Timeline
    Apr 13 2026

    Welcome to the first episode of The Erotic Timeline.

    In this prelude, I introduce the central question behind this podcast: What if we are living through not just political and cultural upheaval, but a deeper shift in the timeline itself?

    Blending reflections on astrology, Mayan timekeeping, trauma, capitalism, colonialism, and embodied healing, I explore the growing sense that the systems organizing modern life are breaking down—and that many of us are being called to experience time, survival, and relationship differently.

    In this episode, I introduce two frameworks I’ll be returning to throughout the podcast: the linear timeline and the erotic timeline—two fundamentally different ways of moving through the world.

    Part personal story, part philosophical inquiry, and part manifesto, this episode lays the groundwork for the questions we’ll keep exploring together: How do we recognize the timelines we’re living inside? And how do we choose the ones that make us more alive?

    Episode Chapters:

    1:07 – Welcome + why this podcast exists 3:15 – My fascination with time, astrology, and timekeeping 6:04 – Why this cultural moment feels like collapse 11:11 – The astrology behind this moment / Saturn-Neptune in Aries 13:20 – Introducing the linear timeline vs. the erotic timeline 14:19 – Trauma, survival, and my personal relationship to time 17:06 – What I mean by “the erotic timeline” 19:32 – Imagining liberation beyond capitalist time 22:39 – Why I’m making this podcast 24:49 – Who I am / identity / ancestry 26:37 – What to expect from future episodes 28:55 – Week-ahead astrology forecast begins

    Thank you for being here at the beginning. Original music by Charmie Chandler https://www.instagram.com/charmie_chandler/ Follow Amalia on ig @thehareinthemoon You can book sessions with Amalia at www.amaliathecoach.com
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    39 mins